Livvy Marcus - Disappointed (Live at the Chipped Cup) Lyrics

I'm not upset, I try not to talk in absolutes
I'm not done yet, I'm just getting tired of the commute

I love the snow against your blackout Brooklyn sky
I love your nose below your dark conflicted eyes

So I'll read the books you lend me on the train
And I'll try to push my last lover from my brain
And I'll lean back and ill roll a joint
I'm not mad just disapointed

I could forget, drink a bottle of wine on an uptown 1
Sing a duet, pirouette in the morning sun

But it feels wrong to shut my brain down, come out cold
I'm not that strong, suppression makes me feel so old

So I'll try and kill my memory's random access
And then ill lose a year in that whole process
And thoughts of him will get disjointed
I'm not mad just disappointed

Sometimes, lately, standing there with the lights down dim
Bent up, crazy, you look so mad you look like him

I can't help it, a twinkled eye and a sideways grin
I just can't quit, choosing that as the mess I'm in

So I'll make a vow to spend more time alone
And I'll find a friend to drink and hide my phone
And I'll go to bed cuz what's the point
I'm not mad just disappointed
Im not mad just disappointed
I'm not mad just
I'm not mad
I'm not I'm not I'm not I'm not I'm