Lola Balter - Knock On Wood Lyrics

The harder I try, the less it does for me
I have everything I could ever want, but I don't have what I need
I could say I was dumb, but I know that I'm just weak
People told me I should've held on to my self-esteem

I can't knock on wood four times
I can't be your savior again
I can't be the mattress you fall back on
If it means I never get to stand
When all there is are eyes on me
I hope I do something that wasn't planned
And you all get to see
What I do for you in a split second
I hope you know
I still haven't learned my lesson

I can't knock on wood four times
I can't be your savior again
I'll be damned
If I'm still alive by 21
You know life's not fair
When you hate yourself this much
If it's all laid out in front of me
I'll always take the easy way out
Take a left turn when you can't stand to be right
I'm driving alone with broken headlights

I can't knock on wood four times
And I'm so sick of doing it all for someone else
Tell me, what would happen if I did it for me?
I'm not that little anymore
I'm not who I could be