what i am made of Video (MV)

I remember feeling bored
And i remember feeling ashamed
I miss my mom
There's this lingering fear i can't explain

And i can't figure out if i have pieces to mend
If im just getting old
Or if i ever will feel good again

Well you said you wanted the cool girl
I can't give you that
You said you wanted more
What if this is all i have?
I feel myself slipping away the more i hide
But i am too terrified to find what's on the other side

You you said that i am predictable
I would've given you the world and more
If you would've let me
I tried
It almost killed me
You still don't feel sorry
I'll show you what i am made of

How is it wrong to be who i was made to become
Cause you said you needed me
You said i was the one
The one

Ripped my heart out of my chest
It's beating in your fingers
You said we weren't serious
So why would you linger
I'm holding my breath
Cause i know what comes next
And it stings

You you said that i am predictable
I would've given you the world and more
If you would've let me
I tried
It almost killed me
You still don't feel sorry
I'll show you what i am made of

What i am made of
What i am made of
What i am made of
What i am made of
What i am made of
What i am made of
What i am made of
What was i made of

So give me a sign
Sent from some source up above
Tell me
What i am made of
And it's not true
God i wish you knew you too
I can't tell you everything you're made of