Lopis - Blanket Lyrics

I can't seem to be gettin' no sleep lately
I'm thinkin' about all the things that be buggin' me daily
It's been drivin' me crazy
Why was I made to be
This insecure
Man
I know I was meant to be better
But here I am stuck in the dirt
F*ck
I got here from nothin'
I was born in the desert
The back of a truck
My dad was like f*ck it
We had him
He's breathin
Like ain't that enough
My come up was tough
My mom fed me rabbit
That she had chewed up
Pops meth'ed up
I thought I'd be dead by seventeen
Nah
That's when I had my son
It changed me
How could it not
I knew that I had to be better
I had no direction but what I was taught
Talk about lost
Talk about stuck in them thoughts
Talk about whether or not
Ima keep holdin my head up high
F*ck
Or maybe I'll just let it drop
That's where I'm at
I'm just feelin' stuck
Life been a drag
It got me lookin back
And I'm thinkin' like f*ck
How did I get here
I don't deserve this
Raised to feel worthless
This feelin' it hurts
It's stuck in my head
I can't go to bed
Like what is my purpose
I thought I had purpose
This blanket is the devil
It lives inside of me
It ain't never gonna let go
This blanket strangles me
Now what I remember the most of my dad
Is when he choked me out
That ain't even mention
The meth pipe that he went and put in my mouth
Was only fifteen
No one to look out
Like what the f*ck is that
Like who the f*ck does that
Man
Who the f*ck does that
I've grown accustomed to pain
That's why its a shame
I can't seem to give more
Me gettin' in touch with my feelin's
Ain't seem to be what I been built for
Man f*ck it
I know I done built more
I feel like I shoulda done did more
These feelin's of guilt
It been eatin me up
And I don't wanna live more
This blanket is the devil
It lives inside of me
It ain't never gonna let go
This blanket strangles me
This blanket is the devil
It lives inside of me
It ain't never gonna let go
This blanket strangles me