Paranoia makes me sick
I'm agitated
Drowning in my thoughts
Got me mentally deflated
Is she mine?
Or I'm just another guy?
Eyes on the prize
So she hanging on to touch the sky
I'm giving all i got to make it work
My attention and my time still i coming short
They just friends she said
But you got Photos in your gallery you cuddled in their beds
Do you love me or you hate me?
I'm no more taking maybes
I hate the way that I've been feeling lately
Everyday you steady tryna break me
Everyday you blowing up my phone just to tell me I'm your baby
I Know I'm with you but i feel like I'm alone
My friends they all love you, cos you always in your zone
Steady tryna the validation of the people
So men flock around you cod the waiting for the sequel
Emotions start to fade
The sun goes down, feelings gone
A new day brings the same
I'm living it like a de ja vu
All she has to do
Is rub my head and say baby i love you
I'm tryna break out of this mental prison
I'm tryna move on, leave love behind and change the season
I'm tryna get a glimpse of your minds
Tryna know if your choices weigh you down the same as mine
I am me until i am no longer
I look into the mirror i can tell that i am stronger
Cause no one really noticed me or cared
And even if they did was it real or for the bread
Disgust on their faces when I'm close
No one gives a shit bout my place like am a ghost
Is it just my girl?
Every one around me,be changing up their skins I'm in hell
I think I'm going loco
Imma drop back baby steps from now poco a poco
My pains you can hear em in my vocal
My girls got my heart and my head, so i stay antisocial
My man john always tryna lift me up
I tell him all the stories of my baby Messing up
John kinda close with my girl
But he my best guy
So my baby make him tell me all is well
Guess it's probably just me
No one's really watching
Going back to be a human, so I'm free
The old me gotta let me in
I'm going back the roads that led to this cell holding me in
I'm taking off the shackles on my feet
I'm giving back my trust to my girl and my friends fill the seats
Dropping all the potions and smoke
Forever i be sober
I'm free but paranoia lives in me