Louisvt - Bedtime Story Lyrics

Let's take it way back
Before I was LouisV
Before I started popping pills and before I dove off in these streets
Before I even had a family because nobody wanted me
For anybody that's confused let me tell you what I mean
Fresh out the womb my momma threw me in the trash
I hope she was feeling bad
Got me thinking where was dad
Was she really by herself
It's messing with my mental health
And I been calling out for help
But I realize I'm by myself
Turned 12 and I seen Ryan pass away
I guess I wasn't prepared
The next week school moved on but in my mind I was scared
Like can you tell me why he died
What he do
Was it his fault
They told me he was sick
Even with God sometimes you still fall
Can't say how that made me feel
Let's skip ahead a couple years
Tryna fit in wit my peers
I kept a smile from ear to ear
Remember ash would always tell me bought her problems
Then I would help her solve them
She finally found a man I can't believe that she was falling
Then I went out of town all my friends was steady calling
They told me Ashlie killed her self just wish I could've saw her
So much pain at a young age I just couldn't do it
Put a gun right by my head I touched the trigger I couldn't do it
This a pain song
Smoke until my pain gone
I know my days are short
I just hope that I don't take long
I'm addicted to these pills but I'm still hoping ion take none
I roll a blunt of gas like f*ck probation ima face sum
I fight depression everyday so it's hard to keep my smile up
Sometimes I be good until them losses start to pile up
Couple hundred on my drip yea I'm tryna get my style up
The city that I'm from all these niggas do is follow
But I'm on my own path
Venting to my song pad
Got a little fame but they still telling me it won't last
Remember we was down bad
Running from a toe tag
Had no ref to throw flags
This life we living so fast
Momma left me in a dumpster I was all by my lonely
They tried to put me on the bus I'm tryna buss down a Rolex
They tryna tell me ian bout it, I can tell they don't know me
Tryna stack 100 mill and split it all with my Brodie's
Thinking bout the meals I missed
What's I crazy world we live
I really hate this space I'm in
RJ hate the case he in
I been sending prayers up to God just tryna live again
Take the top right off the viper
I'm just tryna feel the wind
All them long nights I remember
Got kicked out around September
I was balling by the winter
Can't show love no I can't feel it