Lovinit! - Stability Lyrics

Tried so many ways, I've got so many scars
Days turned to weeks, to months, to years
All the work, all the blood, sweat, and tears
I search for the X on my palm
So many angles
Blink my eyes, please let it be there
C'mon, just be there, just show up somehow
Oh wait, I think I see it
No, it's an illusion
So it seems

How does everyone else have this figured out
Frustration, anger, sadness
I cycle through
No time to scream and shout
A couple of days, then I'm back, renewed
I say this time, it's gonna turn around
Decades pass
I never backed down

I've walked so many roads
Chased countless dreams
From dawn till dusk
I fought the fight
But the comfort I seek has stayed out of sight

Nights, I lay awake
What's the key
Is it luck, is it fate, is it something I can't see
The stars shine bright, lighting up the night
I get the inspiration, and try to do it right
I fought so hard, just to find my way
Hoping tomorrow's better than today

How does everyone else have this figured out
Frustration, anger, sadness
I cycle through
No time to scream and shout
A couple of days, then I'm back, renewed
I say this time, it's gonna turn around
Decades pass and I never backed down

Can it ever be done without losing my soul
I don't want to put on a show
Just do what I love, and find stability
I've been good, I've been kind, I've been generous
Why do the possibilities seem limited to me
Why are they limited to me

Someday I'll find that place
The comfort that I seek
Until then I'll keep trying
Even if the future's bleak
I'll keep hope alive
Dreamin' of stability
Wonder if it's in the cards for me
I've tried so many days, in so many ways
I still believe