Depressed in the Sun Video (MV)

Why is it that when I'm surrounded by happiness, I feel so helpless
It's like I'm living depressed in the sun

Waking up, 8 am, class in session
Running round, everyday, not learning my lesson
Hear my parents, tell me lots, not counting my blessings
Cause this life, so beautiful, still so depressin

They say wow you're so happy, what is your secret?
I tell em there's no secret just read from my leaflet
In there I don't lie I just say as I please
I don't hide my emotions like drugs from police
Cause I'm weak and I'm tired but I don't let it show
A man as they say can't let anyone know
That their hurting, that their sad, that their so f*cking angry
A man has to be, will just be f*ckin manly
Why's that? Why can't I show human emotion?
Just go with the motions (Motions)
Like the waves of the oceans (Oceans)
I'mma cause a commotion (Commotion)
Then go down with the potion (Potion)
What the f*ck (F*ck)
This is shit (Shit)
This ain't how it's supposed to be (Be)
F*ck this shit (Shit)
It ain't fair (Fair)
Can't you see what I f*cking see? (See)
What the hell (Hell)
God damn (Damn)
I'm sad in a new degree (Degree)
God damn (Damn)
F*cking hell (Hell)
I might just go on a killing spree (Spree)

So I'mma keep living
I'mma keep giving
I'm so f*ckin driven
Gotta show em I'm winning
It's taking all been given
But I'm still smiling
And finding Ways
To hide the pain
Living day by day

I'mma just do it
Gun to my head kill all these bad thoughts
Go out with a bullet all it'll take is one shot
But then what will my parents think?
But then what will my friends think?
Shit
I can't do it
Just can't go through with it
Cant let a bullet go through it
Can't let em say they knew it
Can't let em say I ruined it
Can't let em say I blew it

So I'mma keep living
I'mma keep giving
I'm so f*ckin driven
Gotta show em I'm winning
It's taking all I've been given
But I'm still smiling
And finding Ways
To hide the pain

Gotta gun to my head
No one hearing the words that I said
It's like I'm depressed in the sun
One more loss and I'm done
But I'mma keep living and giving
Just Keep living no limits
Till that final day come
And I pull the trigger... On. That. Gun