Lucy Dacus - Limerence Lyrics

Natalie's explaining limerence between taking hits from a blunt
High as a kite
While Rodney's playing GTA, I swear, why is he so good at this game?
It should be cause for concern
I'm just shoveling popcorn into my mouth
So I don't say the things that I'm thinking out loud

I'm thinking about breaking your heart someday soon
And if I do, I'll be breaking mine too

If I stay busy
Maybe I'll forget how I feel and go on living life as I planned it
So bring on the parties, I wanna go dancing
My arm 'round the waist of a friendly acquaintance
Toeing the line of betraying your trust
Why do I feel alive when I'm behaving my worst?

Is there a difference between lying to you
If it feels just as bad as telling the truth?

I know that there is
And I know what I'll pick
I want what we have
A beautiful life
But the stillness
The stillness might eat me alive