I miss her Video (MV)

Reality is distorted don't you think?
I'm stuck with these tasks can never go back
They'll never know what I really mean
Hide behind thin threes tryna be grateful
Cuz that's what the world tells you to do
Just follow the classics
Drop the theatrics
But I'm concerned about my well being
You know?
What if I lost all my essence
What if it all was in vain
I've built all of this structure
Just like they told me I couldn't abstain from it
Don't see myself in any mirror
Tried to change back going insane
Is it fidelity if I'm unhappy?
I miss her
I miss who I used to be
What does it mean to grow old?
Is it compromising? Having to let go?
Is my sparkle gone along with my smooth skin?
Do I really have to give up making plans to party in Berlin
Cuz once you face stability
You never imagine how much you'd pay to leave
What if I lost all my essence
What if it all was in vain
I've built all of this structure
Just like they told me I couldn't abstain from it
Don't see myself in any mirror
Tried to change back going insane
Is it fidelity if I'm unhappy?
I miss her
I miss who I used to be
Do we really have to live through life scared of losing the things
The ones that make us us my soul is spiraling
Cuz I know I know I'm the same
It's just it doesn't show doesn't show on my face
Oh I
I beg of you to read between the lines
I'm desperate but no one can see
If I speak up then I'll be crucified
Don't want any more responsibilities
Was it all
Was it all in vain
Was it all
Was it all in vain
Was it all
Was it all in vain
Was it all
What if I lost all my essence
What if it all was in vain
I've built all of this structure
Just like they told me I couldn't abstain from it
Don't see myself in any mirror
Tried to change back going insane
Is it fidelity if I'm unhappy?
I miss her
I miss who I used to be
I miss her
I miss who I used to be
I miss her
I miss who I used to be
I miss her
I miss who I used to be
I miss her
I miss who I used to be