Luke Jenison - Human Flesh Lyrics

I don't have to lie
Let's be honest when it comes to God, I shouldn't qualify
Let's be honest I don't sing his songs, but I put mine on Spotify
Let's be honest I want faith but I don't even try
I'll say his name, Jesus
I ain't scared to say it
I ain't squeamish
Friends like, you must be kidding
You telling me you believe huh?
Yeah right, we see how you livin'
Never pray, lust for women
Telling rappers to never cross you
Is your version of a crucifixion
I was born with passions but no purpose
Mamma taught me listen to the sermons
Most nights end up as conversations with the serpent
God I'm worthless
Since the first album I said that I'd do this with honesty
I'm such a monstrosity
I'm on my knees begging for an apology, please!
Since 16 I've been depressed
Family been worried and upset
I don't tell 'em nothing
Those are all regrets
I know they just want me at my best
But I can't be
Anything I say I won't and can't be
Any chance to be happy I let run away like a stampede
And I blame you
Like what?
This is your plan?
I left my life in your hands
And now I'm in pieces, ain't you the repairman?
I shelved my bible, I don't need them pages
I don't go to church, no communication
I've been trippin', no vacation
All my thoughts are dark, thank God I'm not a racist
And I thought of death
All alone in my apartment
I cried that night and I beat my chest
I turned 21 with no happiness
I thought God turned his back to me
Out of faith I was feeling stupid
Little did I know he was in the room
Right there with me going through it
All my life I've been a mess
All my life I've said I'm depressed
I had no control I was so turrets
I tried to shake it off like an Etch A Sketch
When that didn't work you would still protect
Arms around me so obsessed
I'll never understand
How you could love my human flesh

He loves us
Oh how he loves us
Oh how he loves us
Oh how he loves
Oh yeah he loves us
Oh how he loves us