Luke Jenison - Monologue 2 Lyrics

I don't care about anything
But everything worries me
I don't want to move
But staying still is worse
I'm constantly living in the past
And looking toward a future that I can't see for myself
Both are painful but the present is painful too
I've been clinically diagnosed with major depressive disorder
And generalized anxiety disorder
For me that means random panic attacks
That make me run to the bathroom
Unsure if I'm about to throw up, die, or both
It means staying up until 5 AM doing nothing
And sleeping in until mid-afternoon
It means comparing myself to everyone else
And hating myself for throwing away a life that's hardly begun
These mental health conditions seem common for my generation
Everyone's depressed
But I'm not everyone
Everyone has their struggles
But I can only see mine
I don't feel sorry for myself
I just feel sorry
Sorry to the world
A world where I feel out of place
There's so much to live for
But all of it seems out of reach