Lupe Dragon - Not the Same (Out of Spite) Lyrics

I, can't get out of bed
Sometimes I dread and dread
The complications of my mind, I can't tell if I'm fine
No I'm not but I can't say it out loud
Let the world just shake upside down and round and round
I can't talk about whats in my head
So sometimes its better if its left unsaid

Out of spite for the decisions, In my mind I have no religion
To figure out why I'm feeling this way
And they all ask "is she okay?" Yeah I'm fine, I just feel like dying
Don't know why, I just gave up on trying
But I'm A okay. But I'm just not the same, I'm not the same

I, don't know where to go
I'm lost around these homes
Some words just don't make any sense
Am I anxious? cause I just can't help it
So why am I identified by this disorder
A form of order to who it really counts, there is no order
I judge myself upon a screening that explains all and why
Cause a chemical imbalance is all that really counts
Take a little pill just to calm me down, and shake off all my fears to help me out
I don't understand where to go, where's my home I don't know
But wait, maybe I'm going insane now

Out of spite for the decisions, In my mind I have no religion
To figure out why I'm feeling this way, And they all ask "is she okay?"
Yeah I'm fine, I just feel like dying
Don't know why, I just gave up on trying
But I'm A okay. But I'm just not the same, I'm not the same

Out of spite for the decisions, In my mind I have no religion
To figure out why I'm feeling this way, And they all ask "is she okay?"
Yeah I'm fine, I just feel like dying