Will Varley Video (MV)

I woke up again
At 4 AM
Wondering just how long
What these songs say
All sound the same
Just keeps going on and on
And I'm pretty sure
This has been done before
So I know it all will pass
But I'm deep in this stream
And I can't really see
How much longer I can last
I started this song so long ago
And it's gotten quite out of hand
My future gets shorter every day
Soon will be in the past
The choices I've made
On so many Sundays
Now seem so selfish and small
And Saturday night
Gave me the right
To stumble down and fall
And Friday night's cup
Was just a warm up
Or maybe part two of three
On Thursday I start
My nights at the bars
Counting backward from you to me
And it never really satisfies
It gets harder every night down the line
Like my future it gets shorter
And I'm running out of time
All of my friends
Are at their wits end
As I repeat this all over town
If all of you say
That I am this way
Maybe it's true I let you all down
My wife would agree
And she's there to see
The things I hide inside these walls
My kids don't laugh
At my jokes but get mad
And don't think I'm funny at all
Though I fail taking care of you
There are some that see the rest
Thank you for seeing how I feel inside
And knowing my best intent
So, I'm pulling these weeds
Down on my knees
Knowing they'll just grow back
And while I'm down
I look up from the ground
And ask God why am I off track
But God I don't hear
So it's pretty clear
That I'm in this world alone
I just want to find
A place to call mine
Where I'm content on my own
And I know that might make you worry
But I promise that I'll be just fine
I'll find the sun in the morning
I'll find you in the moon at night
Soon enough this will all go away
And we'll find a place to be
The winter will soon be over
And we'll welcome the spring