Lux Revival - Only 20 Lyrics

No one really cares if I exist
The refrigerator at my parent's house is full of pictures of my sis
But I'll be pictured in the paper
Hopefully they'll still remember my face
20 Years, I hear my life's ahead of me
20 Years, yeah I've made friends, now they're all dead to me
I won't see them again, until they watch the news
My head has always been so f*cked up
But after today they'll always wonder what drugs I've used
Cause' this life means nothing
This life means nothing
This life means nothing
This life means nothing
To me now anymore
This life means nothing to me
Diagnosed to a higher dose but there's no remedy
My intestines need cut out, a shorter end to me
But if my end comes closer due to surgery
Hopefully you'll still remember my face
20 Cigarettes, you say I'll get cancer
Only 20? I say who are you to have the answer
I always forget my pack when I need it most
My head has always been so scattered
But it's probably just my disease, I'm a shitty host
Cause' this life means nothing
This life means nothing
This life means nothing
This life means nothing to me
Just wait and see where I end up if I go anywhere at all
To take a break with you is nothing more than permanently stall
I couldn't stand taking your advice when you'd never take mine back
For all the times you called me out, man I was never keeping track