Jealousy is Ugly / Trans is Beautiful Video (MV)

I stare into your soul as if it were my own, just to calm myself down
Because I see so much of myself in you, or maybe it's the other way around
But just sometimes
Your joy reminds me of my pain
And I look inside myself because I know you're not to blame
I cannot say I am proud of where my mind goes
But my body grows tired of hiding it's shape, behind clothes
One day I will feel loose fabric to my chest
On that day I will allow myself to forget
All the times I cried over your image
Longed for it to be mine
I will realise you as part of my lineage
It just might take some time
I know there is a word for this
But when I call it jealous I am ashamed
Envy sends me into crisis
But what you have- I need the same
I am so proud of you
So happy for you
So unbelievably in awe of your resilience
But I want that too
I need that too
And your experience, holds so much significance
I stare into your soul as if it were my own, just to calm myself down
Because I see so much of myself in you, or maybe it's the other way around