Lylantz - FORBIDDEN Lyrics

Was enslaved to no end
I was bare, despaired
And struggled to defend, oh yes
My heart from the temptation
Of being drawn to hedonistic cradling
A disease in my mind
Now I stand, straightened spine
Head up high, ready to leave the past in the past
My woes amassed so I let them go
I have forbidden myself to use love as a crutch again
Put the shovel in the dirt
Six feet below I'm digging
Time to beckon the hearse
Former me, a meet and greet with the earth
Won't die of thirst, Aquafina be my turf
Broken cigarettes buried in her purse
That's how I know she knows hurt
Me too, we yearned and next we conversed
And that's how I learned my weakness
For affection and feeling of worth
No it's not fiction, that's fact
Hazard heart needed to wear a hazmat
I do not play poker yet my reactions compact
I brush bs off like crest pro health does for plaque
Had to switch it up, dip in new condiments
Previous desires, I stopped wanting them
The soundtrack to my life became ominous
Upon realization I had gained tolerance
To specific results of incompetence
My higher self was way up doing reconnaissance
Warning me of sabotaging my hearts arteries
Now these days it feels just way too obvious
Yet I hold hands with the ghosts of my past
I give them life, they remind me how they crashed
Suffered whiplash now my thinking less rash
Affection should not be a weapon
I'm sick of deception
Abandoned the crevasse where I once lived
I have forbidden myself to use love as a crutch again
Enslaved to no end
I was bare, despaired
And struggled to defend, oh yes
My heart from the temptation
Of being drawn to hedonistic cradling
Now I stand, straightened spine
Head up high, ready to leave the past in the past
My woes amassed so I let them go
I have forbidden myself to use love as a crutch again