I've been through heaven then hell today
I've been the jailer and prisoner of my mind
And it's you i try to find
Through the lies
That my culture inscribed
What i want to say is...
I'm not the easiest man, i know
But i've got room for the trust i need to grow
Would help for you to know
There's no doubt
Or unease
Left in me about the
Way i feel for you
It's because you're brave in a way that i have never known
And when i look in your eye
There's no doubt inside
You are a truth that i thought i would never find
You are my reason my one, my all, you're my kind
You are the love of my life and i feel this
Like a warmth in my soul when you're here
You're with me every part of my day
And when i dream it can seem like you're right here with me
I been through heaven and hell just to drink from your well
I sell myself out for you
I play the game to lose for you
I lose and still i root for you
And now i have nothing left but to invest in what's left of me
Build up some dignity
I realize with new eyes made wise by the pain of loss that
What i lost was never mine to have
So thank you for leaving the me that was
I realize now that i wasn't worth it for either of us
Shouldn't but i want it
Couldn't so i need it
Denied it but i seen it coming, i'm grown yeah i know what i sow i will own yes i chose it
Couldn't but i wanted
To blame you for the violence i felt when you rose and i fell to this hell
Where i dwell in this heartbreak hotel
Where there's no love the smell of your memory keeps me
And i reach for your ghost but i get
NO LOVE
But i don't let you
No i won't let you go
Even though i know i should
I'll be a better man for me not you