What if it all went right
All that I could do is just sit here and think
What if I held you real tight
Would I be in love and away from the drink
Was it really love at first sight
Or was it just my stomach just starting to sink
I told you I really had issues
I'm trynna forget now my sprite turning pink
Ima tell ya a story, this crazy
Cause ima be honest I cant fall in love
Like I met this girl, and I wont say her name
But she told me that she tired of scrubs
She said that she need a real man
And I laughed in her face
N I called ha a dub
But I guess she could tell by my face and the way that I smiled
Just needed a hug
So we started talkin was f*cking with her
But I wasnt getting too attached
I was scared of the pain
Too scared of the future
Too scared to understand tha fact
That I got abandonment issues
Once I fall too deep I forget to react
Too hurt got me movin tacc
Makin music to try n adapt
A couple days later
She said I just heard of your music I aint know that you rap
But knowin the reason I do
I just told her yeah baby its sum like dat
I do it to cope with this pain that I got
If I dont
Then I start to collapse
So really all this shit is doin
Is helping me heal and not go n relapse
Too much thinkin
I'm stuck in my thoughts
I'm too cold
And my heart wont defrost
At the end of the day
If stay with this girl
Ima break her
I guess thats tha cost
Am I willing to take it or not
Or just wait till I heal
I'm takin a loss
So I told her I dont wanna hurt you
I hope that my point really comin across
And I'm sorry I cant be ya man
Too much shit that you dont understand
Breakin you wasnt part of the plan
If I could go back I would do it again
I would fix all the shit that I did
Hella trama since I was a kid
New man, posted up inna vid
Gotta go mia
I'm off of the grid
What if it all went right
All that I could do is just sit here and think
What if I held you real tight
Would I be in love and away from the drink
Was it really love at first sight
Or was it just my stomach just starting to sink
I told you I really had issues
I'm trynna forget, now my sprite turning pink
Damn