Maceo Musa - Soul Search Lyrics

Wonderin which way to go
Look to my chest I see that it's cold
Balancing high and the lows
I look at my life and I see that it's froze
Stories untold I paint a good picture
Walkin I see me a rose
All down the road I been searchin lookin for love but it's cold
I give my all keepin it new but somehow receivin the old
Must be too emotional
Don't know but these are the things I been told
Mentally I'm f*cked up I give my all I prayin my woman don't fold
But she wanna leave how the f*ck she gone just leave me all alone?
Already we married not no divorce and no we not gettin annulled
Show you a man
This the real deal look at the things I done showed
The way that I hold I been a king come take a seat at my throne
I built this all for you ain't no need for us comparin our own
Got me a home
I'm insecure when I'm livin alone
Don't know what to think I hate gettin close
Because people keep doin me wrong
Same shit different day I swear I just wanna be gone
Cause maybe she'll feel
Maybe the shit that I say she know that it's grown
Dealin with real life won't be easy but it's worth all the feels
Keepin it real I never lied promise no need to be chill
Millions of pills
Overdose got me thinkin the real
Maybe my absence and bein a ghost when I used to be here
Maybe it's best and she'll be fine since she won't even care
I hate bein ignored it's like drivin and all the roads are just clear
Never good enough but you keep cryin and wish that they hear
It's all good though I know that I been the one just keepin it real

And friends too
Went from the guy to the damn fool
Everybody close to me break the damn rules
Pick and choose when hang like it's damn cool
Put me down in a closet like some damn tools
Scrub ya hair rinse me off like some shampoo
Done walkin round lookin in this damn zoo
Every night I pray that I never lose
In my dreams come to life and I never snooze
Long as I got a way to kick out these blues
Told myself I'll heal just a small bruise
Even if people think it's how they move
That'll trick me thinkin that it's all cool
Made a promise to myself I'll never lose
Forever I'm grateful I'll never lose
Forever I'm grateful always keep my cool