rotten heart Video (MV)

Freckles damp, eyes are red
Thought he loved me, that's what he said
Getting older, but not wise
I see dimples on my thighs
And I want love, but I'm scared
And I know I'm not prepared
To feel real loss, or feel pain
But I feel both every day
I'm too fat, I'm too thin
Not enough, never been
Hair's too straight, lose some weight
Is he going to wait?
Hate my songs, am I strong? Am I doing this wrong
I am drowning in all that I'm not
Watch me fake it, then cry in the dark
Rotten heart
All my friends are far away
Or they don't know how to stay
And it's my fault, above all
That I drop boys before I fall
Really liked him, never cried
But it wakes me up at night
I'm too fat, I'm too thin
Not enough, never been
Hair's too straight, lose some weight
Is he going to wait? Hate my songs, am I strong?
Am I doing this wrong? I am drowning in all that I'm not
Watch me fake it, then cry in the dark
Rotten heart
And I wrote this song after a bad day
And tomorrow maybe won't feel this way
But it's always there and it never ends
Wanna rip him out, he's under my skin
And I'm scared one day, when I'm old and gray
I'll still feel this way
I'm too fat, I'm too thin
Not enough, never been
Hair's not straight, lose some weight
Is he going to wait?
Hate my songs, am I strong?
Am I doing this wrong?
I am drowning in all that I'm not
But I'm learning at each stop
Rotten heart