Maleke Austin - Sibling Seperation Lyrics

I have a letter I've written to
A few people
That I really just wanna say something to
To my brother Michael

People love me and my personality
So rest assure
Be happy to know that it ain't mine
I'ts really yours
I've seen you light up rooms
Be the one who they adore
Make so many laugh
Even when I know your heart was sore
Your selfish moments, arguments
That I can't ignore
There's certain things you changed into
I never seen before
I forget you lost your father
Time was never kind
Man of the house
The blind would always lead the blind
Young boy
I know they beat the happiness right out of you
I wish we had the chance to grow up
Like them brothers do
We grew up to survive
Survivors guilt I know it's true
I love you, I hope you heal
Everything they put you through
And to my sister Tafi
I never mean't to go so ghost
But there's some pain
That just never left with your folks
I know the timing bad
You needed your family most
No family left the same
To ever love your baby close
I miss my niece
Sincerely
And it's sad to see
The only time she'll ever see me
Is put on TV
But sis you sounding like your mother
And it's scaring me
I can't stay in the same rooms with the people
Who would trigger me
I swear I'm calmer
Laidback, because of you
I hope the love in your home
Is really cherished too
You have another brother
Reconnect your youth
Trust me I'll call and talk
When I'm ready to.

And to my sister Lailah
Hope you give em hell
And to my stepbrothers
Hope you doing well

And to my second mother
And to my second mother
Loved my like no other

And to my sister Mia
You been my rock,
Held me down in every way
I need ya
You know we locked
I promise that I'll never leave ya
Brought me in I felt like a burden
I know we argue
Didn't understand how you were hurting
You been through what we been through
All of it, everything combined
You've seen and gone through so much
And still stayed so kind
I get frustrated
I know you're older but a naive mind
Make mistakes in ways
That would cost me more than dimes
So push through
And make room
Even when you don't have it
I need you
More than you need me
I'm not dramatic
Even when the kids and life get too problematic
I'm here anytime to listen
No matter how traumatic
Austin be the name they'll shout out
To the highest heights
Y'all made y'all sacrifices
So I won't waste this life
I'm a Bronx baby, but Mount Vernon's finest
Went through too much pain
So I'll never hide it

Self Sabotage