Emotionless Video (MV)

Thinking Im alive but I realize Im dying
You dont see the pain in the tears that Im crying
Giving all I got, dont you see that im trying
Got broken wings but you see me still flying
Im stressin' and stressin' tryna to heal all the pain
Taking all these drugs but I still feel the same
Tryna forget you but I still feel the same
Im tryna forget but you drive me insane

I opened up my mind and you pushed me away
I tell you "I love you" and you say okay...
I gave you my heart and you put it away
Now im crying and crying bout you everyday
I smile even though, my heart is breaking
I smile through the pain, dont be mistaken
I suffer and suffer but I be praying for a better day
Oh god a better day...
Its hard to live with yourself when your dying inside
Wake up or die, let God decide
When I called God, The devil replied
He told me he loved me but I knew his lies

I suffer and suffer, Im killing my angels
Im breaking your heart while breaking these tables
I drink till I drop, No saving my angels, Replace em with demons
I hate that you're leaving, A smiles what im feigning
Just tell me the meaning, Im crying then sleeping
Im sitting at church just hearing them preaching
Im leaning to find out the reason on why Gods watching me bleed

I tell you "I love you" You tell me you love me
The meaning is funny, You calling me honey
But you acting so funny? Quit playing my feelings
I feel like a dummy
I hate you so f*ck me, and all my feelings mean nothing
So i am not keeping these letter, so lovey, you calling me hubby
Just find me so bloody from drinking my henny, you made me so empty
Useless like a penny
You tell me you care, you tell me you're there
You tell me youll love me when im in despair
But where are you now!? where did you go?
Im writing this song like "WHERE DID YOU GO?"
Where did you go? You packed up your shit and left me alone!
I hate you so much, Just pick up the phone!
Or just listen to me , dont say that im wrong
Dont say that im lying while writing this song
You made me so heartless, I guess that im strong
My heart is so jammed, from all of your actions
From all of your words
Making this music for me is a curse