Marcus - Recovery Lyrics

Lifes a double edged sword
Perspective is a weapon
Beliefs are changing at the core
Learning to be present

Life has always been a little twisted like some licorice
Admit that I'm not satisfied like popeye only spinachless
Blueprint made but I can't put the bricks down never finish it
Tryna crunch the numbers I am lost in the arithmetic

Didnt know existence was supposed to be this distant
Always felt so different even though I seemed to fit in
Never loved myself and damn it caused a lot of friction
Me against the world and I was falling to attrition

Then I found a life worth living
Losses taught me that I gotta enjoy winning
Reborn at 24, this is just the beginning
Found my passion can't stop rappin like a present i'm gifted

But the gifts don't mean shit if I choose to waste them
Demons in my brain and I was too afraid to face them
Try to exorcise my mind and leave the darkness far behind
With time I find the demons are the reason that I chose to fight

Lifes a double edged sword
Perspective is a weapon
Beliefs are changing at the core
Learning to be present

I didn't hear no bell
Journey started rocky now I'm gretsky playing hockey
I guess time will tell
Only I can stop me it'll take a lot to drop me

Persevere through anything relentless f*ckin energy
Epitome of strength determination and still feeling free
Can't get too cocky cuz I am early in recovery
But every day I seem to make a shocking new discovery

Gotta count my blessings life will drain you if you let it
On the path to peace and I am learning self acceptance
Used to be a monster all I wanted was to conquer
Shoulda seen a doctor mind was spinning like a helicopter

Building brick by brick
Sticking with the plan to reconstruct the man I am
Can't let the darkness win
Learn to understand that I will need a helping hand

Lifes a double edged sword
Perspective is a weapon
Beliefs are changing at the core
Learning to be present