Maudify - Marble Studios Lyrics

I can't believe the whole time you were right underneath
I can't believe just how insecure you really can be
I don't believe the way you talk about yourself compared to everyone else
Or how deep you'd dig for dirt on me
I can't believe that someone would want me to feel this down
I can't believe after all that you've done that you're still around
I don't believe what you said to my friends
I'll never see you the same again go ahead and pretend I'm dead
I still don't understand what made you so f*cking mad
I never thought we were close but I still called you a friend
I used to be so angry now I just think what you did is sad
But the silver lining is now I know where my friends are at
And who just saw me popping off and thought I'd bolster their brand
But made me feel like I could trust them if some shit hit the fan
And I was way too honest thought y'all would save me from this
But you just took what you learned and let the gasoline burn
I guess representation only matters when I'm perfect
It's girls protect girls until that girl has a dick
I'm ashamed for taking place in your performative bullshit
Cause I should've known better this ain't the first time you've done this
Should've listened to my friends when they said you didn't care
You held my passion for ransom made me your faggot of the year
I made one person angry and now you're so f*cking scared
Well you can take that fear and you can f*ck right outta here
I can't believe the whole time you were right underneath
I can't believe just how insecure you really can be
I don't believe the way you talk about yourself compared to everyone else
Or how deep you'd dig for dirt on me
I can't believe that someone would want me to feel this down
I can't believe after all that you've done that you're still around
I don't believe what you said to my friends
I'll never see you the same again go ahead and pretend I'm dead
It's not what I wanna say but I'm still not okay
Still feel the pit in my stomach whenever I see your face
Feel my blood run cold whenever I hear your name
How am I supposed to trust you that it won't be the same
It feels like at any time you could just switch on a dime
Decide it wasn't good enough say it's nothing but lies
I'll admit I wear a mask but it was never a disguise
I just tend to dull my senses as a way to get by
And I already know I'll take this out on myself again
Why'd it take so long for me to figure out what you did
It's almost relieving to just admit that you're good at this
Why should I blame myself when anybody would've fell for it
Pretend to come from nothing as if you can relate to me
It's a shame that daddy's money couldn't buy you some empathy
You thought that you could pin all my success to my identity
You're begging for sympathy like you can't control anything
But if your grip is so weak then how'd you pull my strings so easily
I'm nothing but a puppet and your show ends with my defeat
How could I ever hurt you when you control things behind the scenes
You designed it to trap me you're always two steps ahead of me
I can't believe the whole time you were right underneath
I can't believe just how insecure you really can be
I don't believe the way you talk about yourself compared to everyone else
Or how deep you'd dig for dirt on me
I can't believe that someone would want me to feel this down
I can't believe after all that you've done that you're still around
I don't believe what you said to my friends
I'll never see you the same again go ahead and pretend I'm dead
You designed it to trap me you're always two steps ahead of me
I can't believe the whole time you were right underneath
I can't believe just how insecure you really can be
I don't believe the way you talk about yourself compared to everyone else
Or how deep you'd dig for dirt on me
I can't believe that someone would want me to feel this down
I can't believe after all that you've done that you're still around
I don't believe what you said to my friends
I'll never see you the same again go ahead and pretend I'm dead
I can't believe the whole time you were right underneath
I can't believe just how insecure you really can be
I don't believe the way you talk about yourself compared to everyone else
Or how deep you'd dig for dirt on me
I can't believe that someone would want me to feel this down
I can't believe after all that you've done that you're still around
I don't believe what you said to my friends
I'll never see you the same again go ahead and pretend I'm dead