Regain focus Video (MV)

I've been putting this off for far too long, but I'm restless now and I need to move on
Doubt has been winning, I know that I shouldn't give in and if at least, not for her
Now my head in hands, I've lost my way
Sit and wait for everything to change
My memory's always failing me
But I can't seem to forget that day
Slow it down and put a breath in, just for me
Cause honestly, you and your stressy head won't allow it, usually
Cause it's alright, she says, it's alright
She says it over and over again till I believe her
And she knows that she's right,
But she can't know how I feel
That way it won't seem so real
I'll pretend that I'm fine and don't feel hopeless
I'll stop wasting my time and regain focus
I convinced myself that I'd be alright if she confessed to me all the truth she hides
I think that summer might cure me and if I'm useless assure me that January comes around
Now she's suggesting honesty
Would someone please just tell me what that means
Since the age of seventeen
I've been more confused than anything
Now she could blame herself for how she hates the place she's in
But probably, she'll just blame anybody else when no one's listening
But she's not right, don't be so uptight
She tells me over and over again until I leave her
To believe that she's right
But she can't know how I feel
That way it won't seem so real
I'll pretend that I'm fine and don't feel hopeless
I'll stop wasting my time and regain focus
I know I've got to get this right, if I don't I'll be up all night
I am uptight and it's not alright I choose denial every single time
The more I learn the more I fear I'm falling behind at record speeds
My friends are slowly losing me and I'm aware that that's on me