MbFuego - Angry Kid Lyrics

Hey there people I was an angry kid you want to hear the list of all the bad things I did
But before I begin this don't judge me for the craziness
Cuz there's a reason for all of the sins on the list
Lets start with school getting F's in every class trying to be cool
And suspension for kicking someones ass
My impulsive problem made me never want to solve em
I could only turn to god but I ain't never made a call to him
See I was praying since the age of seven I'm your son god
And this makes me feel like you left him you know why because by now I'm eleven
And I cut myself and by the way I want to go to heaven
Your son was holding up a knife but why did you let him
I know you don't got a soul but why can't let some regret in
Its like you want me to lose why choose me
To have anger management issues breaking all the rules
Twelfth birthday and I'm a clueless child suspended 7 times I was cruel and wild
And then homeschool really messed me up to death
It got so bad I ran away from home and left
Cuz there was so much hatred aiming right towards my core
So I acted impulsively and went to rob a store
Damn it really sucked bad to be thirteen I wanted to be a normal kid in school learning
But my hopes were up so I was just like f*ck it by now
I might as well just get into my own type of crowd
But then all of the sudden BOOM gang gang gang was my mentality
Going to my homies block carrying a Glock going crazy yelling "anybody battle me"
To any single person who tried to act like they bad to me
Among the crew it seemed like I was earning my respect
But one thug said lets see you take another step
He pointed to a kid alone sitting near his pet
So I got out the car aiming right below his neck
I had to go to therapy for PTSD
Cuz I was fooled thinking stabbing someone wouldn't ruin me
Fourteen years old now and its just getting worse and worse
Now I'm getting sucked in by ecstasies Xanax and perks
Now I know what its like to feel the devils curse
I wake up every morning not knowing how my life even works
By that time all I cared about was money drugs chicks oh
And Publix where I hit most of my licks and following the other thugs
Who were rich from dealing so I dealt too so I could put some ice on my wrist
Fathoming this I just can't do this anymore I couldn't understand what I was even
Thuggin for something inside my core just just wasn't the norm
And I needed to get out whatever was in my soul that made it sore
I finally made a decision to forget about the raw life style that I was unfortunately in
Time flew by real fast I could tell you that a helping hand came with a spark of hope
That I knew would last
Shoutout 561 who was the one by my side
I can't thank you enough for helping me decide which road to ride
Because you knew in the long run
Going two ways would collide I cant be with thugs no more I'm either with him or I died