MC-Coy - Royalty Lyrics

Royalty, who am I?
I've lost my way, I've lost my mind
Yo, all I ever talk about is real shit
Don't give a f*ck how you feel shit
Independent grind don't care about a deal shit
I been goin hard like will smith yuh
I am a legend, my state I been reppin'
I'm coming in first I don't finish in second
My life is complexin' it's XXL
Give me 3 years I'll be XXL
Then I'll be bigger then all of the freshman I'm reppin' my city don't care what you state
Pushing my limits the digits go up cuz I'm doin the numbers no room for debate
Talk bout my life like I'm trapped in the future
White neighborhood but I'm strapped with a shooter
Why do I feel like my life gonna end?
Why do I feel suicide is a trend?
Why do these kids keep on killin' themselves
Like they ain't got no family, ain't got no friends?
Why do these kids keep on buying these drugs
Then complain that they don't got no money to spend?
Man I'm trippin, are you wit it?
I don't know man, I'm a cynic
Yo, I actually feel like I'm going insane
No one to help with these thoughts in my brain
I've been talkin' about all my problems for years, but
Nobody can say that they feel all my pain
I lost two homies who got their diplomas
A month after that they were dead and deceased
Now I make songs for the sake of my conscience
I do it for them hope they resting in peace
No one can see all the shit that I do
No one can save me from all that I've done
My parents are trying to cling to my youth
Cuz they know just how heavy I fell into drugs
No one to love and too many to hate
So many people that I couldn't count
Now all they want is to eat off my plate
So I'm cookin' this beef just to give em some clout
Using my name just to go get a buzz
That was the shit that I just couldn't f*ck with
I trusted you bitches to tell me the truth
But now all my lyrics have turned to a gunship