Meave - Home Alone Lyrics

How did I get here all torn up and lost without a friend
I think I lost it right before I made decisions based on men
You set the bar, babe. You're never far, babe
And I look around and I just can't see where you are, babe

I see kaleidoscopes inside the eyes that painted themselves black
I trace my fingers on the singer's subtle breathing, broken back
I'm in control, babe, and I do it my way
I'll lay in bed until my head can disassociate

I'm so lonely
Only have my own two arms to hold me
Coming second, slipping by so slowly at home alone

I climbed a wall and threw it all. I only tumbled once or twice
I lost the battle of persuasion on too many drunken nights
But I can't relive you
And I can't forgive you
But I can unwind until my mind is fine. I'm barely falling through

My satisfaction comes from fractions of the love I think I need
I look for action in the eyes of strangers passing on the street
I lay down my shield
Do you think I'm real

Bet you could breathe me in and exhale all this pain that I still feel

I'm so lonely
Only have my own two arms to hold me
Coming second, slipping by so slowly at home alone

And I'm a liar
Throwing gasoline onto the fire
Laughing as the flames keep rising higher
At home alone