Memories Video (MV)

I know it's been a minute since i've held or felt your hand
Will you please just help me through it?
Do it as a team I got you in the long run
Cause I know it's going somewhere out there
Very far from right here, light years but along the way I'll fight my fears
Try to fight the urge to keep my distance, peak my interest, miss suspicious
Switching split decision, slit incision with precision deep inside my body tissue
Problem is I f*cking miss you
I just wish i was up with you lately in the night time
I'm horrified to sleep at night
I lay awake my soul to take
Nothing's real every thing is fake
If I die its best i'm buried long before my last goodbye
I'll sit in silence smoking sour just to make my thoughts more shallow
But it helps me cope

I'm living with nothing to lose but i'm fighting this feeling of feeling so needy
When really my mind is decaying at rapider rates
I rap at this pace for an easier facade to hide behind what I say
When I write is oblivious to people around
I'm sharing my thoughts and I feel so alone
Cause no one relates to what I feel deep inside so I try to f*cking hide
Do you see any shame in that?
Cause i feel like i'm forced to reserve my concerns to a journal I write every day
Draining my pain through the ink that'll bleed on the page
Changing my molecules
Some of them thoughts in my brain are now words that I physically see
A pen and a feather is when it began

Music is best of the medicine, better than 'phetamines, raising my dopamine
Helping me build up on my self esteem
Gradually grasping this passion for rapping
With actions that lead to eventually making it happen
I'll load what I wrote real slow when I pull out my pen
I'm holding emotions with blood in my hands...
I'm staining the memory inside of my head