MEUGAI - This Is Not the Time Lyrics

This is not the time to be arrogant
My head is buried in the sand again
Family loves me but I only think of leaving them
I want peace, i must need Jesus' hands
Help-needed sign dangling underneath my chin
My delts bleeding from the alley that i walk within
Im so uncomfortable
Without a reason yet
Time for me's a threat
Life to me's a mess
I used to be the man
How am i so depressed
It's not because of Dan
It's not because of death
I simply lost a friend
It's leaving i regret
Id be there for his kids
I'd be there when he'd wed
The tree's no longer red
It's more a deepened blue
Im scared of people hating me for things i didn't do
My lair is now the only place i can be me
To you
I'm just freak that looms
Among indecent crews