Mezolith - i deserve to be happy (feat. NOVO) Lyrics

Everybody laughing smiling
Keep that shit away from me
No one can understand
That shit's not so strange to me
Feelings cold never fold
Don't you ever pray for me
Question my state of mind
Isn't it so plain to see?

I don't deserve to be happy

So they say
Good things come to those who wait
But look at me
Nothing but misery on my plate

I cannot stand in the limelight
I cannot highlight all of the good things in my life
So I just watch from the sideline
All of the chances that fly by
F*ck is a hindsight?
That shit is not 2020
How many regrets? Plenty
Thinking bout upping a semi
Automatic
Problematic
Mental static
Always had it
All my habits
Wreaking havoc
Causing me to

BREAK
I don't really know how much more I can
TAKE
I only live now to see the earth
QUAKE

I desеrve to rot for those I hurt
I deserve these thoughts I deserve these words
And if there's more to life than this
I deserve to miss out on all that shit

Everybody laughing smiling
Keep that shit away from me
No one can understand
That shit's not so strange to me
Feelings cold never fold
Don't you ever pray for me
Question my state of mind
Isn't it so plain to see?

I don't deserve to be happy

I do not want to be happy