Tryna accept that I might need time
Always on my grind losing my mind that I ain't number one
Until I've won, I won't feel fine
I miss the bliss I felt when I was nine
Nowadays mistakes are a crime
I'm seeing my parents less and less while they still affected by time
Sometimes I wish we'd go back to the lies
I think that's what my sisters call em when everybody was pretending that everything was fine
But I was a kid so that life it was mine
Divorce has changed the course of our lives
Made me realize I gotta be careful and not repeat the cycle
I'd die for my family so know I ain't feeling spiteful
Saw what love can achieve it's either beautiful or awful
And I know that I wasn't ready to be an adult
To the ones I hurt, I'm sorry
I'm working on my faults, still got my feelings in the vault
And seeing that I ain't evolved can hurt
Seeing that the music might not work
It often makes it worse
Life is perspective
Filled with pain and lessons
Focused on the love
With you
I hated that they left me
But I blame myself too
I'll focus on the love
With you
Working on my tape, I'm still tryna be the greatest
The family waiting on me I know the path won't be painless
Niggas dirty tryna steal my flow but they ain't stainless
Focused on the ones around me that's showing me love
I get lost in tryna chase the dough, the bitches, and a buzz
And dismissing the love, writing in the bus was where I found my peace
Now I'm stuck inside the basement tryna chase some glee
Niggas talking shit bout me
When they turned they back on me
But I'm back pushing harder than ever
Got the gang by my side, we'll conquer and prosper forever
I'm rarely getting high but I'm tryna be happy sober still
In her water without gills
So I'm drowning she a dime but I wanna find a treasure
Told 'em don't play with the boy
No more tryna fill the void
With the petty shit, I'll focus on the love now
Demons in the ring I know I'll stand for another round
Even if I'm worn out, I'm ready for war now