I know what life's like
Won't let you take my night
Focused on all the wrong things
Greeted me with a side eye
Needing somebody right now
I need somebody right here
Trying to see past the dark side but it's something wrong with the lights here
I know what life's like
Won't let you take my night
Focused on all the wrong things
Greeted me with a side eye
Needing somebody right now
I need somebody right here
Trying to see past the dark side but it's something wrong with the lights here
I know what love's not
Don't think that I forgot
Always find a way to foreshadow
You hurt my feelings but that don't even matter
Seems easy but it comes with a price
I can't be the only one that's in battle
Take it all take it from me
All I ask is that you don't take the pastor
All I wanted was to value my words and take control before it get any worse
I understand if you can't take me serious cause I still got some demons I'm needing to purge
You seen it coming so you did it first
And I'm sorry I hurt you I did it first
I was still getting high at my son's birth
But I can't let you break me cause I gotta put my son first
I won't silence myself cause my tongue works
I won't silence myself so you comfortable
And I still didn't say what I wanted to
How I'm supposed to show you that I wanted you?
If I loved you I wouldn't have to punish you
If you loved me you wouldn't have to punish me
Disregard me or keep making fun of me
So today I'm gonna be what I wanna be
Taking charge of what God put in front of me
Pray to God that He show where he wanted me
Pray to God that He show what I'm gonna be
I'm the son of a King, Judah son of me
Made me see that that my feelings is make believe
Before I learned how to talk had to learn to read
So I'm sorry for how this is gonna make you feel
I wanna walk forward you stuck in the past and that's only leading us backwards
You said that your prayers was answered with me I guess you ain't think about all the factors
I keep trying to tell you how I should be loved but it's turning into a transaction
I get that it's hard but you gotta accept that I'm not the same man I was back then
And believe me I get it, all of the prayers it took you to let me get back in
All the patience that you had to practice
And I only left you with a fraction
So I'm sorry for all my reactions
My temptations and all my distractions
I abandoned the love you was after
But today my words matching my actions
I know what life's like
Won't let you take my night
Focused on all the wrong things
Greeted me with a side eye
Needing somebody right now
I need somebody right here
Trying to see past the dark side but it's something wrong with the lights here
I know what life's like
Won't let you take my night
Focused on all the wrong things
Greeted me with a side eye
Needing somebody right now
I need somebody right here
Trying to see past the dark side but it's something wrong with the lights here