Look
5 AM in the morning
Came through high as f*ck and my mommas snorin'
Tip toed across the floor so she not knowing
That her only son was smoking
See
Back in June I got caught blowing cops pulled me over
And surprisingly enough I was sober
So I said officer what you need
He said your car smells like weed
I said word what a coincidence
5 years back then I couldn't picture this
I was 13 years old
Living in that green house off of spring mill road
But I couldn't call that f*cking place home
Their was no love in it, just anger and fear
Their was nothing good here
This dude named Jeff is the reason why my life is a battle
He used to grab me and my momma
Hit me with a paddle
He would verbally abuse my brother
If I had heater I would melt him like some butter
He was one of the reasons I was in pain
4 years later that pain stayed inside my brain
If I bottled it up
It would make me insane
Or blowing on 30 different strains
5 AM in the morning
Came through high as f*ck my Momma snoring
Tip toe like a mouse
As I walk and stair at a set of stairs
My phone starts to blare
It's my father
What's up pops
"Are you high son"
Nah pops I smoked 3 hours ago my high high gone
My high said goodbye but never said hello
Than he hung up the phone
I finally made it up stairs
Cotton mouth taking place I was well aware
Mentally I had already lost it
I walked to the faucet
Turned the water on and I started drinking
See when I'm high that's when I do my deepest thinking
As the cold water started pouring
I heard my momma stop snoring
Than I turned around
My momma was behind me she was shocked not making a sound
She just looked at me and sighed with a frown
Before she left I saw a tear hit the ground
She left the room as I heard the tears
I put my fist right through my f*cking mirror
Ironically after that I couldn't have seen clearer
I saw that I was becoming...
Something that I wanted nothing to do with
So I looked at my f*cked up reflection
And started running... away from myself