Miniluv - Recall Lyrics

There sits a thin line between the urgency and apathy you show me
I'm tearing stitching from the fabric
Trying hard to break the habit
But every time I do succeed you're not around
Don't waste all my time
Wishing I was worth all that you paid for
I'm just a pack without an addict
Foundation fashioned from plastic
I am nothing you could ever want and more
You hear me howl but
It's not a sound that drags you back inside
I fear the chill of stretched out spaces
Endless circles, counting paces
So I think I might be stepping out tonight
It's so defeating and misleading
How you're treating me like you're listening
When I'm pleading and I'm grieving
But the clothes you're wearing say you're leaving
No, I don't want you to go
Don't want to have to know
All the reasons why you hate me so
And no, I can't let her go
Can't shake the feeling, oh
Is this how we're supposed to grow?
I remember it all like yesterday
The sun trapped behind layers of grey
The wind that would wind its way up every corner of my skin
The cries that haunt me and the chill from deep within
I recall the look in her eyes as the distance crept between us,
How the screams got lost in the howling wind
How her steps slowed as her joints gave in to soaring pain,
I recall the pouring rain.
I recall the rage and torment
That the separation made,
How you could take me and force me to stay
When every waking day with you
Is just another that I dream of escape
How the clouds have been grey ever since
And how the sun sat patiently
Waiting to break free
And I hate how you treated me
But you haven't defeated me
I see beckoning rays from beyond the door
I'm watching, hoping they bleed into something more
I feel the breeze shift through the frame
I hear the howl, but I'm not afraid
I feel the chill that made its place in my bones
I feel the distance from home
So here's to every night you left me alone in a crate
This is my escape.
So I'm creeping while you're sleeping
Through the door you left open this evening
I'm not staying where you're laying
So that when I leave, I'll leave you saying
"No, I don't want you to go
Don't want to have to know
All the reasons why you hate me so
And no, I can't let you go
Can't shake the feeling, oh
Is this how we're supposed to grow?"