that day Video (MV)

I was coming home that day, everything was like before
I was still hopin to find a way to cope with them all
I came home, sat down, wastin away
But when my mom came home, there was no day like that day

She sat on the bed, tears were falling like the rain
Started crying saying how she can't cope w all of this pain
What could I say? Im in the same f*cking place
Whoever's the most hurt at this point runs a f*cking race

I could've had no parents by my side, what did I feel?
How do you cope with that, how do you live, how do u heal?
My dad's somewhere getting drunk, f*ckin around
When he dies I hope no one sees him in the ground
I still have so much pain left in my chest
I have to do something, now I can't ever f*cking rest
Jumped in front of a car luckily it stopped
How do you cope with pain when u lost all that u got?

Give her some advice, what the f*ck, I cannot
I'm in the same place, I'm in the same f*ckin spot
I have a suicidal mom and an alcoholic father
I have to do it now, options there's no other
Why does God take away all the people who care?
I can say it 100 times, this life shit is never fair
People who I called friends, didn't ask how I felt
Now I know who's real and who's playin pretend
Three months ago I was the happiest I've been
But when you least expect it, life just hits you in the chin
I'm not giving up on my dreams, that shit is weak
But I still wonder how am I still alive after every week