The Miserable Genius - Disappear Lyrics

I don't feel like myself
Usually I'm feelin myself
But lately I been crazy even my reflection hate me
I don't know how to heal myself
Boy I been stressed all of my regrets play on an endless loop
Wish I could forget
But they stuck in my brain
Yeah I'm stuck in my pain
Get the f*ck out my face
I don't wanna talk
I just wanna do this music shit
But I'm trapped in my room and shit
Don't wanna deal with nobody heart cuz I ruin shit
Need separation from desperation but I'm glued to this
This feelin, won't leave
It's the only thing that's loyal to me
Feel like I'm dyin like a python got a coil round me
Think I'm drownin need some buoyancy
Feel the more I speak don't nobody listen
Where the f*ck do I go
Only time I feel alive, when I'm rhymin at a show
Plus I'm tired of these hoes, know they plot on my soul
I'm a crop that's full of guap, and they just hopin I grow
But what If I don't, what if I don't
Does that mean I'm worthless
You should find another person cuz clearly I don't know what the f*ck I want
I just want this pain to be gone, pain to be gone
Sorry I'm a burden I don't mean to make you nervous I just want this pain to be gone

Feel like I'm trapped in my soul
And every chapter I wrote
Don't make no mothaf*ckin sense
This shit don't matter no more
Feel like I'm trapped in my soul
And every chapter I wrote
Don't make no mothaf*ckin sense
This shit don't matter no more

I just wanna leave, Disappear
Get the f*ck up outta here
I just wanna leave, Disappear
Get the f*ck up outta here
I just wanna leave, Disappear
Get the f*ck up outta here
I just wanna leave, Disappear
Get the f*ck up outta here

Sometimes I wish nobody loved me
So I can disappear and start over
Sometimes I feel so f*ckin lonely
Don't wanna leave my Momma heart broken
But, I just wanna vanish like I'm Chris McCandless switch my identity and ditch my family
Not that I don't love em I know I'm buggin
But where I am right now I don't feel nothin
Wish I could be happy where I am
But to much happened to me where I'm at
October over I'm still wearing mask
Broken promise I'm still wearing that
Mad I wasted my muhf*ckin time
I need to make up my mind
Do I love
Do I hate
What difference does it make
It all ends up as pain in due time
I been blind but now my eyes fine
Caught em in a lie all they want is dollar signs
Plottin on my life cut em on a dotted line
They plottin on my life I cut em on a dotted line

Feel like I'm trapped in my soul
And every chapter I wrote
Don't make no mothaf*ckin sense
This shit don't matter no more
I just wanna leave