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Welcome to verbal inception my brain is a weapon a journal is at the bedside
We knowin biology human anatomy but for life we never get study guides
Take this outside I'm sick of the ride Cold and the dark is where I will hide
Just give me a shovel to dig up my grave then cover back up inside is my pride
I'm tired of always staying up late
My therapy session I'm getting the message when I walk out I'm feeling great
No more instigating myself no more throwing the bait
Cuz I'm sick of living in a f*ck up mental state increasing at a rapid rate
I'm trapped inside of my mind funny thing is I'm holding the key
What's the point of having this blood if I ain't even willing to bleed
Flip it upside down like stranger things imma loser like L on 11
Ranking the scale on a 1-10 surpassing the level no question
See these thoughts have been with me since I was a kid
Who am I gonna kid back when the youth and the innocence lived Inside of me I never knew how to fib
So tell me I'm lying when I say that I'm up all night wit no sleep
Cuz I'm tryna fix everything
I've been inside of my mind while I'm stuck inside the past
It's feeling so cold everyday it will not pass
I just wanted to die
I didn't care who I left
No wait I'll fix it
No wait I'll fix it
No wait I'll fix it
No wait I'll fix it
Hello blitz your always welcome at my house
Fast forward about six months now I'm sick of you on my damn couch
Taking up all of my space why don't you get the f*ck out
I don't wanna see you no more hurry up or my eyes I'll gouge
Now it's just me inside of my soul there lies a beast
To let out the truth when I'm in the booth I grab these beats to have a feast
Until they deceased to say the least only release to bring me peace
Is when I am writing recording these words but even these it's not received
You know it's true let's be honest I embarrass you
I thought you knew tried to prove my point turn black and blue
How could you even understand if you've never had my shoes
Or walked thru the valley of death even wit a map you'd have no clue
But that ain't seem to be enough what happened when you were 4
Why don't you talk about all the shit that's happened behind closed doors
Admit that you were molested and to the grave you would of swore
But bringing this up in ya therapy seems to be causing a f*cking war
I've been inside of my mind while I'm stuck inside the past
It's feeling so cold everyday it will not pass
I just wanted to die
I didn't care who I left
No wait I'll fix it
No wait I'll fix it
No wait I'll fix it
No wait I'll fix it