Apathy Video (MV)

Why do I feel this way
Why do I feel this way
I'm just tryna maintain my brain in a stable state
Why do I feel this way
Why do I feel this way
I'm just tryna maintain my brain in a stable state
Why do I feel this way
Why do I feel this way
I'm just tryna maintain my brain in a stable state
Why do I feel this way
Why do I feel this way
I'm just tryna maintain my brain in a stable state
You ever felt hungry but don't wanna eat
Dying for air but don't wanna breathe
Drowning in a pool of desperation but oddly enough you don't wanna leave
I can't put finger on it it's too deep
I try to ask questions then I can't speak
By the end of the day I'm contemplating whether or not it's worth living out this live I lead
Broken cycles always find a way
To fix themselves and let themselves replay
I am not a stranger to the outcome
I am just exhausted and afraid
Before the storm we're blessed with the calm
Before clear skies comes the rain
Good heart tryna make a change
So why should I be harbouring the pain
Why do I feel this way
Why do I feel this way
I'm just tryna maintain my brain in a stable state
Why do I feel this way
Why do I feel this way
I'm just tryna maintain my brain in a stable state
Why do I feel this way
Why do I feel this way
I'm just tryna maintain my brain in a stable state
Why do I feel this way
Why do I feel this way
I'm just tryna maintain my brain in a stable state
I'm strangled by despair
I'm chocking on this fear
I dabble in self destruction really my heart tears
The enemy's quite near
The enemy's in the mirror
I hate my damn self I feel like throwing myself of a pier
I don't get the same chills that I used to
It's a cold world and maybe it's driving me coo-coo
Mother asked me why I don't get excited anymore I turned and I said good question
I don't find happiness in anything I do and I think that's quite upsetting
I'm an ungrateful douchebag life is a blessing
But somehow your suffering doesn't kill my stressing
I'd rather be numb cus when I do feel anything other than sadness it's inadequate
Anger, hatred and unloved it all gets so challenging
Million questions nobody's answering
It's a war of minds so I've gotta keep on battling
Why do I feel this way
Why do I feel this way
I'm just tryna maintain my brain in a stable state
Why do I feel this way
Why do I feel this way
I'm just tryna maintain my brain in a stable state
Why do I feel this way
Why do I feel this way
I'm just tryna maintain my brain in a stable state
Why do I feel this way
Why do I feel this way
I'm just tryna maintain my brain in a stable state