Actualize! Video (MV)

The pain is deep
The pain is deeep
The pain is deep
The pain is deep
My soul is gone
My soul is gone
The pain is deep
The pain is deep
I'm looking for paradise
Can you help me find paradise ?
The pain is deep
The pain is deep
The pain is deep
The pain is deep
My soul is gone
The pain is deep
I'm sober so my mind is on Another level
Them days are over I went years Living with the devil
I'm pouring my heart out in These lyrics
All my life haters pushed it to the
Limit
Cause as a child I was very Artistic
I was young when teachers Tested me and told me
I was gifted
I f*cked up my potential cause I Choose not listen
I choose the streets a nigga was Very egotistic
It's crazy cause the past is the last Place I wanna visit
I have dirt that rots inside my Blood
But I'm a human with feelings
And Im just misunderstood
Never been loved
Always been shoved
Like a book
So now I'm feeling numb
I need something real
I'm tired of my heart
Feeling like it's made of steel
I have dirt that rots inside my Blood
But I'm a human with feelings
And Im just misunderstood
Never been loved
Always been shoved
Like a book
So now I'm feeling numb
I need something real
I'm tired of my heart
Feeling like it's made of steel
I have dirt that rots inside my Blood
But I'm a human with feelings
And Im just misunderstood
Never been loved
Always been shoved
Like a book
So now I'm feeling numb
I need something real
I'm tired of my heart
Feeling like it's made of steel
Hate won't be the death of me But
I feel like I'm chained up and Im Not free
Like god is testing me
Lost of hate all around me
Like I deserve this today I write This cause ima fight this
I feel like a guy in prison for a Crime
That he didn't commit
And It's so hard to admit that I'm Not happy on this earth
Since birth life's been worse
Plus no one ever listen
So I just keep my distance
What kept me sane is the fact That I'm gifted
When I epress my self on mic I Feel like I lifted
A burden in this surface
God help me elevate I'm tired of All this hate
God help me elevate I'm tired of All this hate
Been this way since I was eight
On my shoulder I have so much F*cking weight
I have dirt that rots inside my Blood
But I'm a human with feelings
And Im just misunderstood
Never been loved
Always been shoved
Like a book
So now I'm feeling numb
I need something real
I'm tired of my heart
Feeling like it's made of steel
I have dirt that rots inside my Blood
But I'm a human with feelings
And Im just misunderstood
Never been loved
Always been shoved
Like a book
So now I'm feeling numb
I need something real
I'm tired of my heart
Feeling like it's made of steel
I have dirt that rots inside my Blood
But I'm a human with feelings
And Im just misunderstood
Never been loved
Always been shoved
Like a book
So now I'm feeling numb
I need something real
I'm tired of my heart
Feeling like it's made of steel
The devil wanna put in a bow tie
The only way I cope is by getting Super High
Everybody wants me to be the Bad guy
If I go with that I'd be telling a lie