Mourningdawn - Change In My Ways Lyrics

I have been waiting for so long
For just a brand new song
With brand new, different lyrics
Where you can listen and hear the difference
But now I think I may be failing
And my mind is slowly derailing
I need help, God please don't leave me
Without help I might just bleed see?
I have been waiting
For so long
For a change, In my ways
I have been waiting
For so long
For a change, In my ways
I have been waiting
For so long
For a change, In my ways
I have been waiting
For so long
For a change, In my ways
It seems every time I try to improve
I don't leave enough room
For all my friends
It's a dead end, every time
Every time, I want to die
Why can't I, just f*cking cry?
And get it over with, please why? God? Please why?
Why couldn't I have been born normal
Why couldn't I have been born formal
A nice, f*cking kid
It's not like I was dropped and hit my head!?
I have been waiting
For so long
For a change, In my ways
I have been waiting
For so long
For a change, In my ways
I have been waiting
For so long
For a change, In my ways
I have been waiting
For so long
For a change, In my ways
I have been waiting for a change
In my ways, In this game, they call me lame
They got dames, I don't want one
They look at my friends and try to taunt em
Well I'll go up to them and f*cking haunt em
Nighthaunter, I taunted her, she abused me
Made me bleed, and used me
I thought we were made for each other
I wasn't even born with a brother
And I'm not understood by my own mother
God please, I'm reaching out, I can't die, not like this!
Man I'm pissed at my life, please I don't wanna grab the knife
I have been waiting
For so long
For a change, In my ways
I have been waiting
For so long
For a change, In my ways
I have been waiting
For so long
For a change, In my ways
I have been waiting
For so long
For a change, In my ways
I can't stop fighting
With myself, I'm in hell
I cannot do this
I'm pissed at myself
I can't stop fighting
With myself, I'm in hell
I cannot do this
I'm pissed at myself
I have been waiting
For so long
For a change, In my ways
So maybe it's time to change
All of my ways, forever
I have been waiting
For so long
For a change, In my ways
So maybe it's time to change
All of my ways, forever