As I write this to you now I know that this much is true
Although we're broken up I still care for you
I went to that party when I knew that I shouldn't
I tried to tell you all of this before but I just couldn't
So go and let me have it, you've got every right to hate me
Because even I don't like the person that I've been lately
I'm just mad at myself because I made you cry
And when we first met I told you I wasn't that type of guy
Do you remember how it was when we first started out?
You said "I've never been as happy as I am right now"
Because I took you out to dinner at your favorite restaurant
And chicken parmesan was the meal that we bought
And then you gave me a kiss and ended with a smile
And said "I think I like you, won't you stay a while?"
And I felt so blessed to have you in my life
But then I threw it all away for just one f*cking night, damn
That night we went back to my house
And at the time I was hoping that you wouldn't find out
And when I made the move I was thinking about you
I'm so sorry for denying you that it was true
I thought about you the whole time that it happened
It was just physical, there wasn't no passion (No passion)
It was just touch, I swear we didn't do much
We just fooled around in my bed but we didn't f*ck
And I'm sorry, I know that you don't want to hear this
It's just I got to come clean for me in these lyrics
You stopped answering my texts but I don't blame you
Because all I ever did was bring grief and shame to you
So now I'm fumbling and tumbling back on my words
And I just have to say this in case I never get heard
I'm just mad at myself because I made you cry
And when we first met I told you I wasn't that type of guy
You were different and that's what I liked
I miss hanging out in your room each and every night
I'm being real when I tell you girl that I miss you
I flashback to the nights back when I was with you
We used to drive in my car and overlook the city lights
Girl you can't tell me you don't remember those nights
I'm just mad at myself because I made you cry
And when we first met I told you I wasn't that type of guy
But I lied