I don't wanna die
But I don't want to live
Baby somethings gotta give
Even when I was a kid
I was looking for some peace
I was trying my best
I don't wanna die but this life is getting harder to live
A constant fight to survive while losing sight of my gifts
If everything keeps falling apart does it get better than this
Close to 25 but haven't made much of my life
Trying to find a way but everything keeps holding me back
All this pain and anxiety-a constant feel of distress
Never knowing the next test life is gonna present
Sometimes I wish I could give up on everything and press the reset
But these blessings in my life I could never take back
Like the ones I love the most are solid and they never crack
Seems like I lost sight of everything that was important
Caught up in the losses forgetting that I'm still moving forward
Got a family and my God by my side and that's all I need till the day that I die
Cause we won't take anything with us in the afterlife
Just the legacy we leave behind
I don't wanna die
But I don't want to live
Baby somethings gotta give
Even when I was a kid
I was looking for some peace
I was trying my best
I don't wanna die but shit getting real in the field
Motherf*ckers want my name and mama still worried about me that I ain't gonna make it home safe
Post up with Nina wherever I go
It's how I live-ain't no other way
You can catch me at the spot
I can be in the burbs with a chop
Still have 30 on my waist
Maybe I can be in the hood still slanging them gs to the fiends on the corner
Still making them plays
Not the way I wanna live but I got kids who I want them to see better days
No one can stop me
Take 100 Ls today still I say watch me
Making it happen
I got a passion
Might lose sight but I maintain traction
Wanna reaction
Not gonna happen
Motive is family
Paving a road for them to be happy
I know the days go by every time I cry
I close my eyes and see my daughter's eyes
Daddy's here baby I know time flies
Really don't wanna tell no lies
But it's best that you don't know about how I feel
Pray to God every day that you don't feel what I feel
Gotta be the man of steel
Really be tired of this life for real
Really be tired of having a strap concealed
I do what I do for my babies to have a meal
All this is real
I promise you will see Dad won't accept defeat
This road I'm paving-our Legacy.
I don't wanna die
But I don't want to live
Baby somethings gotta give
Even when I was a kid
I was looking for some peace
I was trying my best
I don't wanna die
But I don't want to live
Baby somethings gotta give
Even when I was a kid
I was looking for some peace
I was trying my best