Muted. - Ghost Lyrics

Welcome back to my uncertainty
Wonder why it's hard to breathe?
Well I think it's the ocean of anxiety
Holding on to all the things
That make me obsolete
Possibly
I'm nothing without fostering
Another idea that I'm broken
And although I've always spoken
About how I made it through so much
Inside I still feel so out of touch
I can't feel the rush
Of letting someone tell me that I'm not who I was
Can I keep going through with this?
And if I don't can I exist
Without the feelings I will miss
Cuz ignorance is bliss
And the taste upon my lips
Is sweeter when I hang on to my sins
(Huh)
But they keep handing me reasons
To keep on fighting all my demons
And they keep exploiting all my weaknesses
I cannot keep up with this
My strength is fading it's
Hard to win the fight
So I hope that it all ends tonight

If it's my time, oh Lord, I think that I'm ready to go
I don't think that they've noticed I've become a ghost
I don't know how much more I can handle of all of this
But for you I'll keep trying to get out of it

Picture perfect son of God, right?
Better than I was, right?
Not someone who'll hurt you, right?
(Ha, ha, ha)
Well that last one might be sorta true
Not something I plan to do
But I can be oblivious to how you view
What I say
Can I hold onto it for another day?
I need the space
To understand all of the pain
That may be the result of a poorly chosen word
And it'll hurt
The both of us
And in my arrogance
I will say that I'm the one
Who hurts the most
Don't you know?
I'm the one who's got the list of ghosts
(Ghosts, ghosts, ghosts)
That still haunt me to this very day
And if you choose to go away
Then at the bottom Imma have to add your name

If it's my time, oh Lord, I think that I'm ready to go
I don't think that they've noticed I've become a ghost
I don't know how much more I can handle of all of this
But for you I'll keep trying to get out of it

Looking back, it's hard to see past all the mess
I have grown so much yet I still reminisce
About the bliss of ignorance
Am I the only one who goes through this?
Who's giving in
To feelings of indifference?
To everything that flows around you
Past trauma only grounds you
And tells you that there's no escape
There's only what had happened to confound you
Surround you
With walls you cannot let them through
And only you
Know there's nobody you can trust
To always hold you up
So you choose to sober up
So you choose to live above
All the lies the devil loves
Cuz you know this life is more than just surviving
It's thriving
It's time I start to dive in

If it's my time, oh Lord, I think that I'm ready to go
I don't think that they've noticed I've become a ghost
I don't know how much more I can handle of all of this
But for you I'll keep trying to get out of it