Nate Strider - Fade Away Lyrics

I'm not gonna let myself be controlled
Every single decision that I'm gonna be making is my own
I've got a lot of pain that I've bottled inside
And every time you wanna talk about it
Feels like a lethal blow
Who's the one to blame
I know I've made a lot of mistakes
But I'm gonna show you my pain
So that you can see it's yours
You are the root of my problems
That I can't get out my garden
And if I'm gonna be honest
I don't think we can solve this
Anytime soon
I'm certain of what I want
But I don't know what to do
I always believed in love
But I don't believe in you
There's so much on my mind
And I don't know what is true
Every single thing that I'm saying isn't new
It's just long overdue
I'm sorry but my love isn't something I can offer you
The two of us have been through a lot together
Two flocks of a different feather
And as of late I've been under a lot of pressure
But if I'm gonna move forward
I think we should end this altogether
I left the door to my heart open
And you entered
But I forgot to lock it behind me
I'm pushing you out into the weather
And I'm sorry
But I need you out
To clean my house
Don't knock on my door
When I scream and shout
My pipes just leak with doubt
My life must see it now
I said I'm gonna move forward
So from this moment on I'll keep my mouth shut
It's crushed trust just flushed down the faucet
Untouched love rusted to dust glad I lost it
Destructive cuts just bust when touched
You're rushed with lust
I'll trust my gut
But what's love sucked of bluffed trust
It's catastrophic
I don't wanna go through all this pain
All we're doing is pushing off the blame
I've packed my bags I'm not here to stay
If it ain't the right track I'll get on a different train
At the end of the day
All you do is complain
I hope you remember my name
And don't act like you don't know
What you did wrong cuz I'll play the tapes
You were using everything that
I said in the past as a reason for me to stay
I know you wanted to be my wife
And I promised to give you the rest of my life
And now it feels like a cage
I think you get the picture
Cuz I'm out of paint