Nate the Boy Scout - Iqua Means Snow Right? Lyrics

Looking back on it now I really did believe in you
Wish I could say I miss you but I never knew the real you
This is just another one of those sick jokes right
Just playing a game that'll keep running on my whole life
Spent years apart yet you're still in my head
Some nights it gets real quiet wish I was better off alone
A ghost in this home surrounded by this tone
You really became apart of me now it's deep in my bones
Or maybe it was me and you took a piece as your own
We were so tied up in each other
I tolerated and condoned
All this abusive behavior
You messed me up right
I should have stood my ground said something and fight
Or at least push back
But I didn't want you to fall over
I saw you were so sensitive
So I became tip toer
Around all of your insecurities I never called you out
But you could turn to me just to scream and shout

Just look at me now you basically made me into this
I was so naive thinking ignorance was bliss
You chiseled me and mangled me just to fit your mold
The malleable believer look at me now behold
Now I'm the one who's storytelling gonna let it all unfold
Now it's my turn there are tales to be told
I have no pride left that's the first thing that took a smashing
My ego's out the window so it's my name I'm bashing
Once I release this for thousands to hear
And you can reflect on this year after year
Wish it could be taken back and things would be alright
But what's been said is in stone and I'm condemned with this blight
A sickness in my head in my body and my soul
Listening to the worldly ways has taken its toll
I'll play my role and I'll play my part
But I'm not playing this game for any of you
It's been tearing me apart
I'm set in my heart and set in my ways
It might be coming soon but I'm like this till my dying days
I've been pushed to the edge and now I'm looking down
Just dangling my feet so high off the ground
We fed into each other and I loved you like a brother
But you made me forget so many people
Even my own mother
You turned me away from what I really was
All because of the drama we caused

Apologies for the call out but you even admitted it
I lost all my friends because of you
You told me I was too scared to be committed
To sacrifice my life and to give up what I owned
All for the betterment of the cause yet I condoned
Your narcissistic behavior and identified it to me
You really convinced me it was a better state to be
To focus on yourself and to focus on your own
But I was slowly forsakening every place I called home
I should have really focused on me and what made me happy
Yet I gave everything to you just to focus on this project
I feel like I lost my real life with my real brother
And then there is this women here who wants to be my mother
She wants to feel my feelings when she looks into my eyes
Yet I've been covering them up for years claiming truth but lies
You told me to run with it and to cover it all up
But all I really did was slowly run myself amok

I'm not blaming you for that one
I did all of that myself
And I'll admit sometimes you really were a help
But once everything concluded and we were all alone
We were both left naked wanting for a home
We destroyed ourselves when we over committed
Why sacrifice for something when it isn't even permitted
But you gotta keep everything that you hold dear
I was left all alone with the savages in fear
I paved my own way and I'm still here today
But my scars cut deep for the price that I paid
Feel like I'm forever mistrusting until I get your consent
Everything that I view still feeling your judgment
Why couldn't I take the shots or call something out
It's like you were the oracle knowing the right from the wrong
Your judgment was misguiding and now I see it
You're no longer my filter and I plea for my innocence