Why is it so hard for me to wrap my head around
One too many stories, bleeding, pouring
It's a struggle to convey these thoughts deep inside my head
From my mind, through a pen onto this pad
I admit I haven't wrote much since the metal band
Poems from 07', juvenile detention
Writing was so simple then and now i feel too much
Been the type to learn hard lessons. Beautiful confessions
Why is it so hard for me to wrap my head around
One too many stories, bleeding, pouring
In and out of lockdown over my substance abuse
I lost all my control. Spinning in a tunnel
Blackouts start to come and in the morning you'll regret
Apologizing pointless. Painful like appointments
Now i keep my consciousness all times unlike 09'
Needed you to cheat on me, lie to me and steal from me
Why is it so hard for me to wrap my head around
One too many stories, bleeding, pouring
All my thoughts alone at night I breakdown in my cell
I deserved all of it. Hateful cause I caused it
When time was standing still and I wanted it to end
Wish I would've known that, growth would come from failure
Finally off paper. I should be your trainer