Neisha2x - Struggle Lyrics

This ain't no simple shit
Living in my momma crib
Had to find two jobs cause I had to help the rent
Had to follow by the rules just so I can be a better kid
I ain't da baby so ain't nobody really give a shit
No lights, no cable, sitting at the kitchen table
Candle light just I can finish eating these bagels
Still went to school, played my role so I show I'm stabled
So I won't be the kid in school walking around with a label
3 bedrooms 4 kids, had to share a bed
Laying head to toe, one blanket
Barely can feel the fan
Lying about the truth cause they can't comprehend
Can't invite friends, momma trippin again
People watching me like a next door neighbor
Momma working everyday just to get that paper
I'm too busy trying to a hot girl
With these pearls and curls
Fantasizing, how I can the worlds favorite girl
Tried to be the cool kid and fit in
Now I hate being the kid that fit in
Everywhere I go it's a trend
And I be like Damn is that who I really am
Coming to my senses this ain't who I'm really am
I'm just a school girl trynna get these Ms (Millions)
They really think I'm Hollywood behind these cams
Laughing at my pain cause it's on makes me stronger
Holding in this pain I can't go any longer
Trynna maintain myself before I really lose it
All these ima opportunities, i swear ima abuse them
That's they only way they feel hear me
If I start talking, they wouldn't hear me clearly
Sitting back listening they think chatting about bullshit

Can you feel my pain
Can you feel my pain
Can you feel my pain
Can you feel my pain

Drinking until I'm faded everyday
Just thinking, while I smoke my brain away
Looking at the ceiling all I can do is pray
Mediating just to keep me from spazzing everyday