Nera.Thenewera - Life Behind Closed Doors Lyrics

(Yo, nera ay, yuh, I dont wanna die alone
But I know that I'll make it on my own, yeah yeah yeah at
Shout out to silent boy aka hooded, shout out to all my supporters, uh)

Wish I didn't cut off everybody when I get attached
Wish I could go back in time and give myself a second chance
Change the way I live yeah
Pay for all my sins yeah
Sever all my feelings plug the hole up with a shiv yeah
Wish I didn't cut off everybody when I get attached
Wish I could go back in time and give myself a second chance
Change the way I live yeah
Pay for all my sins yeah
Sever all my feelings plug the hole up with a shiv yeah

And that's the way the cookie crumbles
I've been trying to keep it humble
Mumble rappers all gon' turn into cadavers
Cuz they claim that they're the masters when they're really only bastards
I (I) don't (don't) want (want) to (to) die (die) alone (alone)
But I know I'll make it on my own (my own)
Nobody hitting up my phone (my phone)
Like what the f*ck is going on?
I've been trying to make these songs
Coping with emotions
Leaving my thoughts in the open
I dont wanna be the one who has to close the door

And all this shit means nothing
Smart watch, smart phone
Gold studded choker round my neck tryna flex a check to get respect
I've been waiting all my dollars trying to collect (ay)
Thoughts in my head create stress that won't go
Work everyday just to pay for my home which I sit in alone
Or skip it f*cking feels like
Why am I alone?
It doesnt f*cking feel right
Got a broken heart from the very start
I didn't try to let it get to me
Now I'm up all night and I'm losing sight
I'm caught up in the history

Wish I didn't cut off everybody when I get attached
Wish I could go back in time and give myself a second chance
Change the way I live yeah
Pay for all my sins yeah
Sever all my feelings plug the hole up with a shiv yeah
Wish I didn't cut off everybody when I get attached
Wish I could go back in time and give myself a second chance
Change the way I live yeah
Pay for all my sins yeah
Sever all my feelings plug the hole up with a shiv yeah

I dont know
Why I go
Down this road
On my own
Too far gone
Cant turn back
Sticks and stones
Break my back
I dont know
Why I go
Down this road
On my own
Too far gone
Cant turn back
Sticks and stones
Break my back

Coping with emotions leaving my thoughts in the open
I dont wanna be the one who has to close the door

Coping with emotions leaving my thoughts in the open
I dont wanna be the one who has to close the door